Monday, March 30, 2009


"uuuuuuhhhh" she whispered into my ears,
My destiny.
I cringed, scared.
"uuuuuuhhhhh", whites all, pretty saree, no face.
She gestured with her hands, faceless, emotionless,
Oh, the unfathomable words!

Horoscope, horoscope, get my horoscope
She danced with a specific rhythm of hands and feet.
Oh destiny, how do I read you?
You have no face!
Still, still she was.
I handed her the paper the priest gave.

She tore it into pieces,
there she lay my destiny, in pieces,
join them, paste them.
How could you?
Why would you?
God! This struggle, this meaning
my horoscope, my destiny.

Crystal balls, would you know?
"uuuuuuhhh" yet again.
unfathomable noise.
afraid to read, is that language?
can I read anymore?
Aaaahhhhh, stop it!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Blank wait
blank eyes
parched earth.

Tired wait
tired eyes
swallowed by earth.

Pleas appear
pleas senseless

Thursday, February 19, 2009

I traveled through terrains of unhappiness
forever and ever.
It has been almost ten years now.
He came, he went
My love unrequited, parched in me.
Every time I saw another
I said, "This may be it!"
And it wasn't.

I was scared to smile
because smile meant happiness
That you make me happy
As soon as I said that
they ran away, those cowards!
Have you ever loved a woman?

Then he just landed on a day least expected.
Was it easter? i don't remember
It was a day when sun was the brightest
Stars shone at day
Moon and sun merged to give out a blue-yellow light
He came, he lay, he smiled, he touched my heart.
But i am scared now
I know he is not one of those wolves
But i am scared to be happy.
Which part of Heaven did he come from God?

Just like we met, let us keep meeting, keep loving
with no end;
every end leading to new love between us
just like in your world; Happily ever after.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Mind's numb,
My heart is blank
Vacuum seems full
still there is a haze, a block,
somewhere in me
a place I don't know of.
Break it for me, God
'cos i don't want to folly again
i am sapped of all strength
there is no reason in me anymore.
fathomless, mindless, heartless existence
give me a reason to deny, to break, to close this chapter
that runs seamlessly in my veins.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Wrapped in senses

With a swirl of sand you emerge
your golden hands embrace the earth.
So huge, they wrap me in their earthy charms.

Your eyes devour the world
I sink in my portrait,so enticing.
Your moans accompany the impressions
of my touch. You soak in those marks.

I split you as I slide on your slithery body
Beautiful halves. As the sand engulfs me
we pray. Allah he screams. I freeze.
The red blood comes gushing into my head.

I am buried in sand now
Sand doesn't come off my skin. I scrub and scrub
Your eyes, your hands, my portrait, my love
my love, my portrait, your eyes, your hands
Leave me! Leave me!

The sand and sky have merged
Saraswati appears. I run into her lotus arms
In her loving embrace I close my eyes
I feel sand again on my skin
It doesn't itch anymore.

I am free to breathe and as I open my eyes
I see Allah in my skin
Your eyes, your hands, my portrait,
My love, My God, your hands, my eyes.

We are sucked into the brightness of the rays.