Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Graduate Programs! When I was applying here I was told how difficult it is, and when I look at most of the people around me I see how easy it is! One expects experienced people in the program, only one out of ten is experienced. So we go through the shitty fifth standard/grade politics where one has to look good in front of some authority or that I shouldn't share my notes because she will score more than I. Holy God! Save this f...ing world! or Save me from expecting perfection from others and also from going insane!
This page has sometimes become a place to vent, may be that's what all writing is.
My struggle with teachers continues, do we all struggle with them? There is always a need to see perfection in them. I don't think teachers are petty, not because they are not human, but because after having undergone all that education I expect their knowledge to have helped them transcend that stage that human beings go through.I encounter such kinds all the time. I wonder how they do not understand how much students depend on them for their approval. Or may be it is just me because I haven't had any such source ever in my life. I think my childhood was just taken away from me having had to meet struggle right from then. May be I should thank God that I was introduced to that when I was little. It just never stops though or may be I am so used to it that when it is not there I find means to struggle. I think students expect teachers to not judge, but not every teacher wants to be an ideal or works towards an ideal. I don't know why people undergo all that education if they can't work towards an ideal, why do anything if you don't aspire to be perfect?
My rant about teachers... I love them and hate them all the same. I must admit that I am because of all the great teachers I have met, so it isn't so sad after all. :-)