Tuesday, March 29, 2005
It has been 2 days now, have gone through a bit in these two days. Emotions never leave you in peace. Past loves, past hatreds, memories... they just keep coming back. 'Rememory'- that's what Toni Morrison calls it, not that mine ever can reach the nadir that a collective community has, but it is unsettling. I have just kept running after it, kept it in my hold, my fault. I don't know how to let go. But you know what, they have formed me, my memories - good and bad ones. They surely create longing and put me in bouts of sadness but they are there. They are the reason i feel. They just don't go, i think they have gone, but they come back. They haunt me and i question my present. My present meets the past and determines my future- is that how it is?